one way streets

I have not visited the boys or even called for a couple of weeks. I was hoping to hear from them and really hoping that someone would  call me. I did hear from Spencer the other day -he got his report card and has earned $45.00 which I will pay him next week. Feeling discouraged that my relationship with this part of my family is so mixed up and strained and it seems like if we talk it is usually me that makes that happend.. At least this is the way it seems to me at this time. I am thinking that if I do move away they may not really miss me all that much. It makes me very sad and hurt but I will deal with this because I love my family and families don't hurt each other on purpose.