Grateful for Jeffrey and his relationship with me.

I am grateful that Jeffrey feels like he can talk to me and not hold back. He does not feel judged by me and knows I am not gonna yell at him for his feelings and what he does. I get a little frustrated that he has to get away from his family because he feels like they are listening in on him and he cannot speak freely. I know he loves his Maggie and this is a painful time for him but this is a way for him and Maggie to know if they are suppose to be together. If they see other people and still spend time together it will give them a better grasp on what is right for them.

Life seems a mess

I was over to see my boys this past week. It was so nice to see them. The visit was strange in the fact that it had been a few weeks since I had seen them and their mom was very cold and distant. No idea how to get thru that wall-still don't understand why  she is being that way with her mom. Families need to support each other even when they don't agree with each other in all of their choices.

It always baffles me how someone can take a few things they don't like and throw away all the hundreds of positive things that should be what makes us family like:

Being there time and time again when the going gets tuff

Supporting each other even if we don't agree with each other.

Accepting each other as we are and not what we want them to be.

I don't and never will understand how people that are suppose to love each other can
say and do things that are so hurtful and hateful.

I have always been there for my family and God willing I will continue to be able to reach out and do that in the future. Lord I need your help here.

one way streets

I have not visited the boys or even called for a couple of weeks. I was hoping to hear from them and really hoping that someone would  call me. I did hear from Spencer the other day -he got his report card and has earned $45.00 which I will pay him next week. Feeling discouraged that my relationship with this part of my family is so mixed up and strained and it seems like if we talk it is usually me that makes that happend.. At least this is the way it seems to me at this time. I am thinking that if I do move away they may not really miss me all that much. It makes me very sad and hurt but I will deal with this because I love my family and families don't hurt each other on purpose.